Explicit Content: Parental Advisory

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This topic that I am about to talk about is going to be a little graphic. So if you’re not over the age of eight-teen I suggest you look for another Blog to read. I have been going back and forth with myself on if I should touch this subject or not, but fuck it, I’m going to dive right in, so here goes!

The topic I am talking about is Porn. What is it about seeing a naked woman or man, depending on what you like, arouse your “other” parts? I will admit, that while deployed, I would look at that shit all the time, but being back home, I feel there’s no need. Hold up, before you we get into a back and forth argument, this is ME. Your penis’ brain is much more different than mine, so keep them damn personal comments to yourself. If we can’t talk about this like adults, you will be cut the fuck out of the conversation. Point Blank. I’m not saying this or trying to direct this subject in a certain direction, because I’m married and you think that my wife or my side piece will read this. They don’t. My wife doesn’t care about my Blog and my side piece can’t read. (Calm down, the side piece comment was a joke! I can only handle ONE woman!)

Back to the topic at hand, is seeing a woman/man with oversized tits or a huge penis and a bare cootch/dick the thing? Some men/women have lost good girlfriends/boyfriends/wives/husbands to this epidemic. Yes, I call it an epidemic. Why? Because I muthafuckin’ want to. There are those that are so hard-nosed and will not believe that there are straight/gay/lesbian/bi individuals in this world that don’t have a world that revolves around trying to hide what they do when they are alone. There are some couples that use the excuse that, it’s an enhancement/sexual aid to sex. Really? How? Making your mate want that individual that’s on the screen and settling for you at the moment, at least that’s how I feel. I will admit that I did try to use the “let’s watch porn together so we can intense our sexual experience”, we paid $15 for the Pay-Per-View and 2 minutes in, she walked out. That’s one reason why I feel the way I do.

I have my own ways to spark up the “beatin’ them guts” department. It’s called foreplay, talking nasty or just fucking. You don’t have to make love all the time, sometimes you just need to bust a nut. If you don’t know what OTT-two-way-street1the word foreplay means, then you obviously don’t do it. I used to be a spry chicken at one time, but even as a yungin’ I didn’t have the “want or need” to look at porn. I guess that’s because I was sheltered and I didn’t have access to it or the need for it. I was a virgin until the age of 19 and I was “sexually molested and taken advantage of” by this much more experienced female while in Advanced Individual Training (AIT). Everybody says they remember their first and will never forget it, but that’s something that I want to bury and never bring up again. You can only lose/give up your virginity once.

Anyway, as I was saying, I don’t think that porn does anything to a relationship, but make it one way or in some cases ruins it. If you or your mate isn’t getting it, aren’t you or them frustrated? That’s how it is in my house. I honestly believe that if you use porn as an enhancement or sexual aid you expect it and you are only aroused by, it. If your other half/side piece can’t do that for you then you’re a lost cause. I understand that some people love porn and will go to great lengths to buy it/hide it/support it or whatever; however, don’t put me in a category as “that person who is lying or something is wrong with him” because YOU like it and have a need for it and I don’t. We are all different. If we were all the same this world would be a boring place.

Don’t take this Blog Post as me saying that porn is bad, because that is not what I’m saying. I’m just questioning the need for it. The last time I checked this was a free country we lived in and I can say and talk about what I wanted. I also understand that this is a two way street and you are going to have your opinion, soI will not be butt-hurt by what you say or how you feel. Please, again, I will say PLEASE, don’t get personal. We are all adults right?

Who Knew?

giphyToday, I’m in an awkward mood. Usually, if I’m feeling uneasy or frustrated about something, I can put on some music to calm my nerves, but today the choices of music bamamoneychosen by the random button are only fueling my frustrations to ANGER.

Please, don’t ask why. It’s only going to make me ANGRIER. I’m sure I could change the music to something soothing to the soul, but it’s too late, I’m past the point of no return. After a little typing, I’ve started to calm down. This Blog has become an outlet for me, a great way to say something, when trying to talk about it is difficult. Usually, when I start to write a new post, I make sure to have 2 additional tabs open, one with my Facebook page & one with a news outlet of my choosing that day (I don’t always use 1 news outlet to get news). Today, before I chose to look at the news page, I looked at my Facebook page. You know what REALLY pisses me off, is f****** lies. It’s taken me so much strength, mentally and physically to keep myself from falling victim to a certain subject, but today, that damn GREEN Light just came on. (If you’re a Paratrooper, you know what happens when the green light comes on. Death From Above.)

Okay, I know that everybody has a hustle or something they are extremely good at, but when your job is to lie to people and target a certain group of individuals wouldn’t you consider that discrimination or segregation? I want you to look at this statement. “Never would have thought that helping people get their lives back, giving people hope & spending more time with my friends and family would amount to this. Speechless. In a little over 3 years we’ve generated just under $500,000. I’m a stay at home mom who got tired of the 9-5 death cycle. I got tired of saying “see you later” when my husband deployed or went on trainings. I got sick and tired of being sick and tired. It was a decision that has forever changed our lives.” 

010Before I go into my rant, the person who made the statement above, their spouse was only deployed ONCE, this person was in the Green Zone. I’ve never been to the Green Zone, so I don’t know how “rough” it is, but I have been 10 miles from the Syrian Border, I have been deployed to an outpost 6 miles from the Pakistan Border, I’m not trying to play the “my penis is bigger than yours game”, but I hate it when people use the word deployed and they haven’t seen real combat. Yes, you were away from your family and you could have possibly been in a couple of patrols, but people take the word Deployment out of context. This spouse was injured during a training event stateside. There are fucking Veterans that can’t get the fucking help they need because these maggots are crowding the system. (I’m Good Now.)

I know you are wondering, where in the world am I going with this. I’m tired of individuals claiming that they are changing people’s lives, when in reality all they are doing is feeding into the cycle. All they are doing is adding more individuals to keep the “living from paycheck to paycheck” cycle going. You have people with well paying jobs that quit them, so they can “change lives.” Come on now. How are you or ANY individual for that matter changing lives when all you do is show a muthaf****** video, get them to use “promise” (money that you will have in the future) money they don’t have, “encourage” them to travel to places with more promise money they don’t have, with the promise of “all of us started off this way & guarantee that it will get better”. Then you have the muthaf****** audacity to tell me that all I need to do is get 3 people to sign up. How the F*** did you change my life? You know what, you did change my life, I went from living to paycheck to paycheck to asking myself, how the f*** am I going to provide for my family?

DSC00994I will admit that I was one of those individuals, but from the jump, I questioned it, but either my question was not answered or I was fed some bullshit just to keep me from asking questions. The individuals that are supposed to be “Ambassadors” for this organization say they are making SOOOOO much money, but where’s the proof. Oh, you’re driving a car that you say,”the company” pays for, but if you ballin’ so tough, how about you go out and buy a car. You can’t. Maybe the individuals that work at the national headquarters are making thousands or millions, but you’re not. If you have the ability to “quit” your job and pursue this career full time, why do you continue to “work” so hard? Because you have to. If you’re sitting on your butt, you’re not going to make any money. This cycle happens every month. On the first of every month everybody is on the same level, it may take days or a couple of weeks for you to reach the status you obtained the previous month.

In addition to making it hard for me, you place me in a market that is already saturated with other individuals that “are trying to change lives, on drink at a time.” Come on, I would much rather you come at me real, than feed me bullshit and I have to find out the hard way. What happens if you go 3-6 months without finding 3 people, who is going to pay for that product? Yep, you got it, more f****** promise money. Damn, I can’t pay to keep my lights on, but you continue to tell me to dive in a saturated market to find that one individual that doesn’t know about this product. You’re gonna tell me with a straight face, that there is a person in a f****** saturated market, that there is someone out there that at least hasn’t heard about this product? Get the F*** outta here. I was born at night, but not last night. I might be from Alabama, but I’m far from stupid. You can take that B.S. and feed to another sucker.

Me, personally, these individuals are as bad as drug dealers. That’s a bold statement, but it’s the truth. A drug dealer’s bottom line is to do what, move product. Get more product and start the process all over again. I will say that drug dealers have morals and make more money than the individuals I am talking about. This is still a sore subject to me, because I put so much of my own money & time into this “organization” that once called me family. I’ve lost friends due to their lies. I’m to small to expose these individuals, but once they are exposed I will happily say I told you so.

Some of you are looking at this post and asking yourself what the hell is he talking about. Don’t worry, once it comes out, you will know exactly what I’m talking about. Those that know me, already know what I am talking about.


百十五 (Hyaku-Juugo)

Today’s post will be short and to the point. I’m going to talk about a picture that has been circulated across the internet. In the picture there are 2 black men doing their daughters hair.

This picture has caused a S*** storm across the world. Why? I honestly think it’s not the fact that they are homosexual, but they are black. I don’t understand why it’s a problem. If the picture were of two men of a different ethnic background, it wouldn’t be a problem and the individuals that are judging, would think that it was cute. Some individuals don’t believe that black men or women are allowed to be homosexual. While growing up, I was taught all homosexuals were going to hell. One thing I remember from my preacher while growing up and when he talked about homosexuality was “God made Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve.” I really didn’t know what it meant until I became an adult. When I left home for Basic Training I was very homophobic. During basic, I had a battle buddy that said that he was gay because he wanted to be discharged from the Army. All that did for me was solidify my homophobia. I didn’t get over my homophobic tendencies until I had a chance to sit down and talk to a person who was a homosexual. Having a chance to sit down with this individual opened my eyes to why this person was the way they were.

Individuals that choose to be homosexual are just like everyday people. Some homosexuals you would never know that they are unless they tell you they are. I didn’t believe that someone could be born a homosexual and I still don’t think that a person can be, but I do understand that some individuals that become homosexual become that way due to the fact that something happened to that person physically or mentally. Don’t stone me because I said that I don’t think that a person could be born that way. I’m no scientist so by me saying that I don’t personally believe that they could be born that way doesn’t mean that I am saying it’s wrong, it’s just my way of thinking. I have accepted the fact that people are going to do what they want and will continue to do love who they want. No one on this earth has the authority or shouldn’t judge another human being for what makes them happy. What’s crazy is that some individuals will accept two women kissing on each other but when two men do it they are totally disgusted? Why? Makes no sense at all. Hopefully we will start accepting each other as human beings and let people live the way they want. When this world does end and Judgement Day arrives, the Creator will be the judge and he will make the final decision on where they will spend eternity. The only person/people that we as human beings should be worried about is ourselves and the individuals we provide for.

About a 2 years ago I found out that 2 of my friends from high school were homosexual. Does that change my outlook on our friendship? No, it doesn’t. Why should it? I’ve always said that as long as they don’t come and try to mack on my then I’m fine, but that is still an ignorant way of thinking. So I have adjusted my outlook on the whole situation. If a homosexual man finds me attractive and lets me know that he is checking me out, I will kindly let him know that I am a heterosexual male and I am HAPPILY married with 2 beautiful daughters. Now if this person is persistent, like I was when I was laying all my game out on my wife, then I will then be rude and tell this individual to step off. I also asked myself that if one or both of my daughters tell me one day that they are homosexuals, will I love them any less? Of course not. They are my girls. I love them no matter who they choose to love or marry. That’s the outlook that we as americans should have, because it’s going to happen whether we like it or not. Instead of discriminating and segregating these people because of their gender preference we need to accept them so we can finally move forward as a country.