It’s taken me my whole life to feel this comfortable to tell you this. So here it goes, why did you leave? Was I not good enough? Not the boy you wanted me to turn out to be? Well guess what? Its taken every damn breath in my body to say I Forgive you. Because you never taught me anything, I learned how to do what was needed to be done on my own. I strive every fucking day NOT to be like you! It sucks that I can’t tell you this to your face, but this is the best way for me to get this shit off my chest. When I needed you, you were some where in the United States shacking up with some woman. I strive everyday to be a better man than you. You know how many nights I cried because I missed you? No you don’t, because you didn’t give a shit!! It’s all good now. I’m showing you how to be a man. You know, I’m a man now, but the shit still fucking hurts! But, I am now man enough to forgive and forget. I know you will never ever see this, one day I’ll be able to say all this to your face. I’m the type of man that doesn’t run from his problems. I man up and handle mine. To say I love you is hard. You didn’t teach me how to do that. You showed me how to bang on a woman and cuss her out, but that’s not Jared J. Gober. This guy here, is a proud family man, that wouldn’t put a hand on his queen. You are something else. One day, everything will be lined up and we will be face to face to get this out. I can’t hold it any longer. Holding on to it is only making me a bad father, no no, not me!! All I want from you is for you to man up and be real with me. No Bullshit! No Lies!! That’s it.